When the desert was left behind, And night dissolved into day, When the stars began their shimmer, And pain became a fairy tale. I thought of you.
So as not to weep upon the road, As I rushed into that darkened hall, Of that lightless apartment building. No one else was in my thoughts. -not even the one I love the most- There was only your soul. I was alone with your soul. I thought of you.
A dove amidst the surroundings, With its young ones by its side, Majestic they were, and proud. Their wings, a brilliant white... They flew with such grace. I stopped, I watched them. I stood there, transfixed, Yearning for flight... And you came to my mind, I thought of you.
When the dust had finally settled, And had reached up to the sky, When the wind had vanished, And those mountains I called insurmountable, Became a path for me to walk. You were ever in my mind. There was no one beside me. I thought of you.
Like a warm and gentle breath, When your soul enveloped me, For days, I did not sleep, Or perhaps, I could not awaken. Listening, to your soul, Within a seashell's whorl, Among the endless clouds, Beneath the ocean's depths, At the very edge of the world, I thought of you.
When the past, with the future, Merged within my dreams, And shattered into pieces. When the soul, opening in whitest light, In a violet-blue flame, Bled crimson, drop by drop, And found its way to truth. I smiled then, like a child, And fell silent, like the dead. I thought of you.
In a land unknown, In a time unknowable, The phoenix appeared, Crimson and magnificent. It was not there before, It came when all had gone. All others leave, it arrives. It remains, and you depart. I thought of you.
At the bottom of the well, I was as lonely as a stone. How magnificent the night was... Magnificent and grotesque, And savage in its long beginning. Yet, it too had an end, And at its end was the light. When the sun brought its dawn. I thought of you.
I thought of you... ...... ..... ..... Onur Aydemir September 14, 2025, Ankara
